i am so dissapointed with myself as lately i've been getting into so much trouble
which cost me more and more fines to pay up now . well im talking about my habit of
smoking which leads me to no where but hundreds of dollars burn and 2 session of councelling for me to be a smoke free person. urrghhh. my offence was littering actually , but littering a lighted cigg bud on the floor .

aniways , other then the fines , things have been goin on smoothly. no fights between me n boyf . "amin" . btw , im soo gonna book a chalet located at bukit batok ,its the CDANS club . well , its very cheap only $50 a night , its a 2 storey chalet with 2 rooms and a living room on the 2nd floor and the first floor , it is like a open space , its does not have doors nor walls , its has tables and chairs to hang around , PLUG IN SPEAKERS as it has a few powerpoints , the best part was each room has a balcony . YEAh . eventhou its not by the beach or soo but i like the chalet itself. it is big . i went there last saturday as i had a birthday partay to attend and i find it a good place to throw a partay . i shall throw a partay there too one day .

your truly ,
ikaa farhanah bte hussain Lee.

CHOWS .

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i realise that i have been eating alot this few days and ya , gaining some weight.
i told boyf that i wanna loose some weight , 'hahahahahaha' he laugh
so yaa. thats how it goes. anyway , having alot of fun taking his solo photos today.
i really miss him alot , in camp now. yes , god has answered my prayers . i hope there wont be anymore fights . miss u bby . *hugs*
love .
frm girlfy.

im really looking for a part time job and its hard to get 1 this few days . with the economy now , companies are firing staff and here i am trying to apply a job . ridiculous .

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im going to be strong so that i could stop crying whenever i had a small fight with boyf.
because if i aint strong enough im afraid i wont be staying long and the love between us is going down the drain which im sooo not gonna let it happen . love is the creator of us , the reason of why im staying . after the small fight we had today , i hope it will bring us closer as we realise our mistakes and most importantly , bby , i miss ur hugs, they way we cuddle n me sleeping in ur arms . i also miss the way u used to pampered me last time . missing the old us. time will tell .


had alot of fun with mai these few days ,trying to get over my fines and the problems im going thru. the both of us really watched alot of indonesian movies yesterday .so called "movies marathon" mai is crazy over samuel rizal, a indonesian actor in the movie eiffel..im in love then followed by ayat-ayat cinta where the both of us almost cry watching that movie. it is soo touching, just like when ur watching the hindi movies , the emotional part. haha! hope to have another movie marathon with mai before school reopen and then assignments are getting pilling up each day . lots and lots of revision to be done before another semester ends, well gotta keep my brains working .soo much plan for this holiday but aint got anytime for it.im gonna miss alot of outings but i will for sure catch up with u guys as soon as possible .

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he just dont realise what his doing is really affecting me.
the love between us is hanging helplessly now.
please do something to it as i've tried my very best to save it.
should i stay or should i go?


to boyfriend
you've messed me , you've screwed me up.
i feel hopeless and powerless.
i wonder how to melt ur heart of stone.
i know im far from perfect.
you've broken me into pieces with your attitude
dont you know that you are hurting me.

from girlfriend

hope u can change.

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tired of what has happened this few days.
i really dont know what am i doing . i hope things wont get worse.
im really missing baby badly. im soo looking forward to this friday.
i cant wait to see him. not really in the mood to blog much today. things happened in school
and i dont really wanna talk about it.

currently waiting for bby to text me ,his so busy cleaning his riffle.


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down with fever, flu and asthma.
been having asthma since i was a kid
but its been years since i had asthma
and now it came back.
how miserable.
this week i can predict it aint gonna be a good week for me
well its monday today and soo many things had happend. NOT THE GD ONES of course.
urrrghhh.
had a few misunderstandings with boyf today
as usuall girls cry , soo yaa i did.
i really had enough of what he had done towards me repeatedly
im weak. and worse getting weaker each day.
i really hope there will be change in our relationship
coz for now its hanging helplessly.

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i wont be attending school for a fews days
as my beloved grandma has just passed away last sunday
therefore i'll be very busy with 'kenduri' .
im gonna miss alot of lessons in school , my roleplay , napfa test .
really gotta catch up alot .
you might not know her but all you can do is pray al-fatehah to my
grandma , jamiah bte rashid .
i really missed her now.

ya'allah , tolonglah tempatkn nenek ku ini dikalangan org2 yg
soleh dan solehah. semoga diampunkan dosa2 nyer .
amin.

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